Saturday, 7 February 2015

EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER

Hello, it's been a long long week but I'm still alive. I guess that's just how I think; I try to think of each day as its own. It's already day 38. 327 days for 2015 to go. Time flies by so damn fast you don't even know how the minutes and hours even days change you.

I'm alone at our hostel room now. Gonna have to do my homework and revision later. I have thinking so much lately. Thinking about a lot of crazy things. A lot has happened since the first day of school. I've been wearing my heart on my sleeve and putting my feelings out on the table more. Never have I cried two days in a row. I think it's a good thing? I don't know. But everyone has been so busy and the ones that understand me the most all are so distant. To meet even a few minutes a day becomes so challenging,

I really don't know how to describe my whole week. It's been a roller coaster of emotions. I'm just thankful I have someone to talk to each night and someones to have girls' talk in bed. I cherish these moments so much. I really wish school wasn't so stressful. But maybe only in hard times that we really know how strong we are. Even though I'm still so damn vulnerable.

I really look forward to this coming Saturday and pray it will not rain. I hope everything goes smoothly and to plan. We have been practising for so long, I hope everyone enjoys it.

Would you stay even if I asked you to leave?