So last week was our lion dance congratulatory and 30th anniversary dinner. It would be the last time I attend this dinner as a HHHS student. There were many many people there and everyone was so high and excited. It was especially touching when after the dinner, we gifted a massager machine to our best and special teacher. It's been an honour to be his student and lion dance member. I remember I was only Junior 2 when I went to apply to join the team. Never had I thought that I would end up here, being a captain and somehow excelling in the drum. Never had I thought I would meet so many helpful people that also somehow ended up being good friends, and someone also ended up being my special someone teeheeeeeee. I'm very grateful for everyone who helped me along the way, especially my 8th team. You guys have given me headaches and stomachaches from laughing too much because of you guys' craziness. I really am someone who doesn't know how to put my thoughts and feelings into words, so just know that I really love you guys #EIGHTHFOREVER.
Anyway, another reason I feel so blessed these days is because of my boyfriend. I know maybe I'll come off as hiao or attention-seeking or whatever to some people, but I think it's fine to talk about my boyfriend once in a while and maybe show the world how well he treats me. I definitely feel a lot more happier now that he's around. He's like my muse and my inspiration. He's the one who asks me to work on my homework when I'm lazy and procrastinating. He's the one who tells me not to eat spicy sour food when I'm on my monthly. He's also the one who brings me lukewarm water in a Thermos bottle every morning when I'm on my monthly. The one who asks me to sleep early, who tells me to take dinner, who cares about my safety when I'm driving. He is very kind and treats me exactly how a boyfriend takes care of his girl. I have no words to express my gratitude for all the things he has done. I know he doesn't like counting the days but I still have to say #happyonemonth
I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank all my friends, especially my class group members. I know maybe I'm more beh cham in our class because I feel kind of lonely after my best friend has flown away to happier skies. I'm really touched that you guys will still stick with me and give me morale support whenever I need it. I know my grades aren't good and I'll need lots and lots of catching up but I'm grateful for all the help you guys gave. I may not mention it and may mute our group conversation but I really am very touched. I sincerely thank you guys for everything.
So, it's the start of the holidays! Today I went on a field trip to The University of Nottingham. Another course caught my eye and I am seriously in a major dilemma right now. I'm thinking of studying English Language and Literature because I think the only thing I know to do now is study English. All my Science subjects are bleh and my confidence to study psychology is deteriorating fast. It's like I only know how to read and write. My left brain has not been functioning well lately and I really feel like I'm at the bottom pit of my class. I think my interests are more to Arts, Social Sciences and Humanities because when asked by my dad, I don't like engineering. I don't like medicine. I don't like IT. I don't like business or accounting or law either. Suddenly I felt so left out. I felt so weird, like I don't know and don't like anything. After being so sure on my psychology pathway for almost 3 years, I feel like a lost blind person at the crossroads. I really hope I'll get out of this situation soon as it's really giving me some fear for the future and a little stress too.
On a happier note, our groups' forum has been selected for the finals, yay! I was really nervous we weren't going to make it but in the end we did succeed. So please look forward to seeing Dr Khoo on the stage on 31st March during the assembly time hahahahahaaha.
